Tuesday, April 15, 2008

small wonder

"Small Wonder" by Sandra Bierman

I bought this print after seeing it hanging in the pumping room at the hospital. I loved it instantly because it captures totally the way I feel about having a baby. I love the way the women are gazing at this child who is radiating light. That's how babies seem to me...full of light and wonder.

Anyway, I have not been a very good blogger lately and I think mostly the reason is that as I near my due date, I find myself feeling a little more introverted and introspective than usual. I feel more quiet and reserved, more purposeful, more... mindful of the event that is going to take place in my body and in our lives.

But what I want to say is that I really appreciate everyone who has given me advice, or been excited with us, or worried with us, or listened to me talk incessantly about my pregnancy. Sorry if I've been annoying. It's nice to have friends and family who care though, and I appreciate you all. Thank you for the lovely shower. I felt so supported and loved! I've had so much fun washing and putting away tiny baby things. And thank you for all the photographer advice. It really makes me love blogging that we can share stuff like that with each other.

So nothing too exciting is happening by way of baby news. I can feel my body doing all those things it is supposed to in order to prepare for birth. Feeling a little more uncomfortable and tired and sore. I'll make sure and post if there is any big news (like a baby). But in the mean time, forgive me if I am an inconsiderate or distant friend for the next few weeks. I'm just feathering my little nest and trying to savor this time I have left with just me and my baby, before I have to share her.

But really-- I kind of can't wait for that either!


  1. I love what you wrote, "savor this time I have left with just me and my baby, before I have to share her." I never thought about it that way and I love that!--Jay

  2. I loved the print as well because it reminded me of this:

    "Ricky Bobby: Dear little baby Jesus, who's sittin' in his crib watchin the Baby Einstein videos, learnin' 'bout shapes and colors. I would like to thank you for bringin' me and my moma together, and also that my kids no longer sound like retarded gang-bangers."

    xoxo-your big brother

  3. I felt the same way before Claire came. I listened to softer music, I read more, I didn't go out much. It was a time of reflecting, hoping and praying. Good luck with everything, you will do great.

  4. This made me smile. I think that's how it should be right before a baby comes. I hope I get to have a little of the introspective time too. (I'll have three kids runnin' around though, so who knows.) I look forward to hearing about your little babe when she arrives.

  5. This post perfectly describes what it's like when a new life is about to come into your family. Enjoy your time before she comes... enjoy your time with Trav... and I hope you enjoy the time left you have with her inside of you. And I love that print! I can imagine you feel like there is so much to think about, and so much unknown about how everything is going to happen and what it's going to be like once she comes. I was definitely like this before Charlie came. Good luck with things that are coming, and you are going to be a wonderful mama!

  6. I am so excited for you. And you sound way more prepared for her coming than I was. I can't wait to see pictures!

  7. 16 days! ahhhh! Good for you. And that print is darling. I just can't wait to see your little bundle!

  8. Teary...and so sentimental right now. I have such a tender spot in my heart for pregnant women and babies in general. It is so magical...the entire experience and every moment connected or associated with baby. I am anxious for you to enjoy one of life's sweetest and most spiritual moments...that glorious moment when you and your baby girl come face to face, body to body and just gaze at each other for the very first time. It is the truest form of love at first sight.

  9. Sorry to comment again...

    I just read your comment at Segullah, and I just have to say that I am a tad bit jealous that you get to have the choice to be all alone with Trav and your baby girl, if that's what you choose. There were SOOO many people everywhere when Charlie was born, and all I wanted was an hour alone with just Mark, Charlie and me. (I guess that come with the territory in our situation). I mean people we didn't even know. It was kind of freaking me out. I did start to feel like I was suffocating. I don't know why I just left that in a comment... I've never really given it much thought until now, because I just had to be ok with what was going on around me.

    But, I will never forget the time we got our first real alone time together, just the three of us. It was such a powerful moment. I cry just thinking about it.

    So all I'm saying is enjoy the time you have and freedom you have to choose.

  10. don't have your baby till i get home!

  11. What a gorgeous print. Who is the artist, may I ask?

    Like you, I love the peace and inward turning that seemed to fill the last few weeks. Yes, there was lots of craziness and thinking, "Oh man, when is this baby coming!" but at the same time...lots of reflection. And quiet. And just love for this teeny person growing in me.

  12. Although you feel exhausted and sore, it is so exciting and awe-inspiring to know what is coming, and you just can't help but feel a little anxious.
    It's amazing to see your little one for the first time. You just can't stop thinking, "She's mine?". I'm so happy for you! I hope everything goes just as you want it to!

    P.S. I didn't think you were inconsiderate or annoying when I saw you at the shower. You just glowed, and you are always a sweet friend.

  13. I am so excited for you, what an amazing thing you are going through and are about to go through. Motherhood is beautiful.


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