If you'd have asked me 3 weeks ago if I'd be still walking around with a giant belly, pregnant as can be today, I would have absolutely bet against it. With our trip to the hospital and all the contractions I've been having I'd have bet a million dollars that this boy was going to come early. But... it just goes to show that you never really know with these things.
So no baby yet.
I am %100 overwhelmed by my life right now. Not that its terrible or hard or anything. Just that I can't seem to prioritize or get anything accomplished. And I keep thinking the baby might come any day and am afraid to start any new projects. (And by projects I mean unpacking boxes and painting...that sort of thing, not the fun kind).
Despite my best laid plans, there are about 100 things on my to do list that just aren't going to get done.... Gifts that will not be as clever as I'd hoped. Phone calls that won't get returned. Decorations that will not get put up. Life is just that way sometimes. I'm OK with it...but I still feel lame and like I need to apologize to anyone who I am responsible to for anything. Sorry. Also, I am kind of in awe of all my friends and those people around me who seem to manage to get it all done. Really... in awe.
I feel like Christmas is happening all around me and I just want to curl up in bed and read about birth and hide. Or sew things. That's normal right?
When I say my belly is huge I'm not just being funny. My belly is actually measuring large and baby boy was predicted to be well over 8 lbs...and that was 3 weeks ago. Almost none of my maternity tops fit anymore. Somehow I am actually feeling more comfortable than I was a few weeks ago...maybe he's dropping? Bring it on.
It turns out I start crying a lot about a month before I give birth. It happened with Avery. It's happening this time too. Just so you know.
I have contractions ALL. DAY. LONG. Uncomfortable ones. I know its normal and nobody seems too worried about it...but still. At what point does the baby just fall out?
I'm really excited to meet our boy. Really excited. And even though I feel him kick, kick, kicking me all day long, it still feels a bit surreal.
And no...we don't have a name picked out yet. We're weird like that ;)
Merry Christmas friends! There is no way we are getting a card sent out this year. But we love you all the same!
I just had my second baby 3 months ago. She was born 5 ays passed my due date and weighed 8.10 pounds. My advice, not that you asked, is enjoy those kicks, apologize to no one for anything you do or don't do these days. And, maybe you should start one of those projects. He's bound to come when you do. The curtain project I started the night I went to the hospital with my girl is still not completed. :) Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteSO I was going to say "hang in there!" but the first commenter beat me to it. :-) Glad you're feeling more comfortable--at least while you're waiting you're not as miserable, right?! :-)
ReplyDeleteI always feel like I'm in limbo the last few weeks...because the baby COULD come but hasn't yet. It's odd. And no matter how many people tell me, "Oh, relax and enjoy your last few weeks of sleeping all night!" I'm ready to move on, you know? I think it's hard to focus on much else those last few weeks. Which is my way of saying don't feel guilty for the things that you're not doing but think that maybe you should--it always amazes me, when I actually stop to think about it, how much we demand of ourselves when we are GROWING ANOTHER HUMAN BEING. It's kind of amazing that we can manage to even get out of bed (not that I managed to get off the couch for the last 3 hours before my husband came home from work today...)
THANK YOU for this update. I've been checking, and waiting. My sister was due a few days ago as well, her second (a boy), like you. She also had a girl for number one. So I'm thinking you'll both deliver at the same time ;).
ReplyDeleteGlad you're willing to wait! Your body is just doing pre-game warm-ups. Let it practice before the big game and it will go so much more smoothly. Waiting is definitely underrated these days. Your boy will be just right. I can wait :).
Don't worry about getting things done. I'll help you unpack or paint or whatever when we come to visit. Just enjoy this time. It is a wonderful time!
ReplyDeleteYou have every reason in the world to feel overwhelmed. You guys have had so much going on, especially in the one space your nesting instincts are telling you to focus on--your house! Just wanted to validate your feelings. It's hard in the final weeks to resist that urge to finish everything. I think it's hormonal. But I'm on leave till Jan 10 and would love to kidnap Avery for long periods of time so that you can get things done after brother is here . . .
ReplyDeletethanks for the update! sorry youre feeling overwhelmed. i think if you weren't feeling that way it wouldn't be normal! hang in there!!
ReplyDeleteAccording to Ryan O'Neal "love means never having to say you're sorry." Thanks for the update.
ReplyDeleteDitto to everything Shea said.
ReplyDeleteMy 6th babe was born the week before Christmas last year. What a busy time. It is overwhelming, it is tiring, it is frustrating, and if you are like me it is so easy to be impatient and over it.
Our baby decided 41 weeks and 6 days was the right time for her.
My other babes have been born from 38 weeks onwards.
I know it's hard, but try to remember there is no such thing as a Due Date. It is an estimation. Every baby is different, and needs however long they need.
Your little boy just needs a bit longer. He will come, don't worry about that.
No baby has ever stayed in forever ;)
You are doing awesome! I know it might not feel it right now, but you are. Growing and nurturing a wee babe. You rock.
XOXOXOX to you.
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Did you dad just quote Love Story? Awesome.
ReplyDeleteHere's the best thing I ever made myself learn: when you're pregnant and when you have a tiny newborn, you just have to lower the bar for yourself. When I have high expectations that I don't meet because my body just can't go that hard/fast/etc., I am heartbroken (and guilty etc. etc.). That's how I was when Blaine was born and I was a wreck. Now I just give myself a break. This year there aren't as many handmade gifts and my wrapping will be subpar and my neighbors may not get goodies and heaven knows I'm not sending out Christmas cards, but dang it, I reading Christmas stories with my boys and they got polar bear pez in their advent boxes today so I am feeling pretty darn good about myself. ;)
Wait, is this your blog? 'Cause I'm pretty sure I just made this comment all about me. Awesome.
What I'm trying to say is, I know exactly how overwhelmed you feel, and it's OK to just cross a bunch of things off that list. Not because they're done but because this just isn't the season for them.
I love you. Thanks for the update. I was checking every day impatiently.
xoxo
I was wondering how you were doing. I love that you want to curl up in bed and read about birth. 100% normal. Just hang out and soak in the season. When will you get to do this again? I'm so excited for your little boy. What a fun mom he is going to have. Merry Christmas and we can't wait to see pics of the cutie.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas...pretend I am sending you some virtual peppermint bark. In fact, maybe that is what I should send all my neighbirs, Virtual treats. What a great idea.
Like my mom said, I am so willing to help you with anything I can when we come visit!
ReplyDeleteI am thinking of you all the time and am so excited to meet baby boy and see you guys and Avery!
Just popping by to say I saw your pregnancy photos on Katrina's blog, and you look beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI'm so excited for your new little guy - he's so lucky to have such a caring, loving, fun mom! And, I'm sure the Wilson-Bolick-Long crew could have your house painted in no time! :) Merry Christmas and good luck!!
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